They asked me how I knew.
They asked me how can I be so sure...
and they asked me if I know who you are.
Maybe I do,
Maybe I don't.
That's not important - not at all.
You are who you are, to me.
You make me feel like everything will be fine... even when we face the worst of times. You always make me feel protected - it's as though the sharpest spears of the world will never maim me, for you are there to shield me. I've never noticed this before, but I have always fought the hardest battles on my own, even though I may have a partner with me. I have always walked that narrow road between the cliffs alone... even when I'm supposed to have someone there to help me. I've walked that way for far too long, so much so that it becomes almost natural, I never realised that the World is not that bad a place after all - it never is when there's someone there to hold my hand.
I've braved the thunderstorms and shielded myself from the flashes of lightning. I've plodded on through the muddy, water-clogged streets willing myself to not be afraid, I've turned my face up to the darkened skies... feeling the stabs of rain pelting my face.
I've always thought that pain will ease the hurt inside. I've always used all of my willpower to maintain my foothold and my grip on life. I've smiled even though my heart breaks, laughed even as my spirit wanders away to that dark corner in my mind. I've always had to tell myself that everything will turn out fine - but I've never genuinely felt that it will.
When things seem to work out, it's simply because I've become numb to the pain. It's always because I've convinced myself that things are never as bad as they seem.
I've walked through the fire and felt the chill of the rain.
You've wrapped me around in your cocoon of safety, so that I will never have to brave the elements alone. You have given me a space under your umbrella... and quite a big space it is, even if you have to walk half-drenched through the merciless rain.
Through it all, you've always held me;
and I know you will always hold me close.
It's not raining now.
It never is... wherever you are.
DaddyMoo - Happy 3rd Anniversary.
16 June 2012