Sleeping away from home.

Friday, 8 March 2013

BabyMoo started full day childcare and playgroup last Monday.
It wasn't an easy time for him, but I think I felt the pain more than he did.

When I am at work, he has so far been taken care of by his paternal grandparents. My mum-in-law and I are his primary caregivers - so when it comes to sleeping, he naturally looks for a familiar face.

He now has to settle himself, because we aren't there.
It was hard to see him crying himself to sleep, but I comfort myself that hopefully, the arrangement will do him good in the long run.

First steps to independence.

Milk before naptime

This scene hurt me more than his tears did.

I walk away... my heart's breaking and I feel that I am leaving myself behind as the little voices fade in the distance. I just want to go back and get him and bring him home.


My love, my pride, my soul.
Excuse me now... while I bawl my eyes out.



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  1. Hugs to you!
    The photos of BabyMoo sleeping on the mat made me wanna tear too. He looks so sweet in that cute sleeping pose :)
    Children are very "hardy". They learn fast and will adapt easily.

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    1. Yes! That's what I tell myself too... we are the ones who really need the comforting! :)

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  2. Hugs Regina, it's a rite of passage. If it makes u feel better, Dumpling not only wailed but pounded on the door to be let out. She was (still is!) that feisty!!!

    She got used to it only months later so my emotions were always on a yoyo high and low coz she still cried every morning when I dropped her off then. :/

    So babymoo is outstandingly brave. Though frankly my guilt meter probably hit the roof during the first year.

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    1. I am so proud of him, because I can tell he was trying so hard to be brave the entire time!

      I talk to him as we walk home from school, and tell him that he is a big boy and he must not cry. He looks at me, and nods silently - squeezing my hand tight in the process.

      He tries. So I have to try harder.

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    2. Wow, he did so well! He's growing up into a little man my dear. :) That's motherhood for us Hun, sigh, our heart is almost almost in our throat!

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  3. *hugs*... I know what you mean.

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    1. :( ya... sad hor - but very necessary!

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  4. Eh you made me tear also!!!! Wait lah. Wait till he goes army and you are shown his bunk bed. :p

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    1. Brian told me... his Mum cried lor.

      Haiz. I imagine myself as Irene Ang in Ah Boys to Men. Hahaha!!

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    2. hahaha! Eh! I can imagine you like that too!

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  5. Hugs...! I know what u are going thru... But it will pass.. Just like Benson.. Now he wanna go school everyday.. Even asking on weekend.. =)

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  6. I just blogged about this 2 months ago!! I totally know what u mean. She is still cries every single day whenever we part even now although the teachers say it's fake cos the moment we leave she stops. Hang in there =)

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  7. Regina, it's a rite of passage and it will get better for him and you :) We had those mornings too when the teachers had to peel us away from Sophie when she cried to get her into the cc and we were instructed to leave . Don't beat yourself up and feel guilty. Instead try lots of praise and encouragement so that C will know that he's doing well too.

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  8. I can feel your emotions through the blog entry and gah, my heart welled up a little for you. But I have to say...babymoo looks very cute in the photos! I love to look at their little faces when they sleep..and the photo of him drinking from the milk bottle absolutely says how much he misses & loves you! xx

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  9. I felt and still feel the same ever since my girl started childcare in Feb 2013. Walking away from the childcare with extremely heavy heart. After a month, I am still struggling. {hugs} The children are trying to adjust and adapt, let's do the same together with them :)

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  10. I can feel you, Regina. Hang on there. Time will heal all separation anxiety, take care! :)

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